Who Do You Think I Am?

I stand, my shoulders slumped, my knees bent, my head hanging and a fake smile plastered on my face. My eyes reveal my true emotions, the sadness, the hurt, the tiredness. This game has been going on too long now, the enjoyment is over. Yet, my master clings to my strings. Their cold eyes and evil smirk stare down at me. A glint crosses their eyes and they jerk my hand. It hits my face but my smile never falls because it can't, I can't control myself. That's when I do the unimaginable. I breathe in and look up. A real smile fills my face and I notice their expression change. They can't control me, only I can. Their eyes widen and their grip on my strings loosen until they are hanging at my sides. I smile, a smile for freedom. The next minute I run off, leaving my master behind. They are not my master any longer, because I am free, free from my strings. I am no longer puppet, no longer easy manipulated. I am free.

"Who do you think YOU are, who do you think I am?" (Lyrics from Taken by One Direction)

I guess that's how I felt before I left Stardoll, I was innocent, easy manipulated, easy to target. After I came to my senses I deleted my account, too much drama for me to handle and people know the fuss their was. I had to leave that world and I thank myself for doing so. Now I have gotten into blogging, which has improved my writing.

Now that I have abandoned that world, I feel free. I feel like a bird who has just learned to fly. I have discovered myself, I have basically found my real self. That old self-conscious me is braver and more confident. I still carry a few traits but I don't miss that other world I was part of and I am glad to come back home.

Sara and Manny were right. There are two worlds, reality and a virtual world. There is a fine line between them both, one tip and you could stay in one. I'm happy that I am part of both but I think reality will help me in the future.

It was nice to have you Stardoll but you exploited me, you exploited me too far that I finally realised the better.

Niamh

A Writer With A View

Leaning back, I smile. A small satisfying smile, not a huge grin, just a simple curling at the ends of my lip. I shake my head and sigh, sighing with happiness. I haven't completed anything or overcome a problem that has been worrying me. No, surprisingly, I'm smiling after reading an article. Well, it was split into two parts but it was still one. It made me think, I guess, making me look at world in a new perspective.

The post was about blogs actually, funny that I'm writing this on one. The way she wrote the piece, it enticed me, making me interested, grabbing my attention. It was very unlike the other articles I have read, not being mean it any bloggers. It is true, what she said, it is fact that some people choose to ignore and try to overcome this theory.

I quote (from the following article); However, because great writers are so hard to come by, standards are lowered and good writers become famed. As a result, many somewhat quickly work their way up and reach the "famous" rank.

I smiled at that part, it stuck out like a sore thumb, but in a great way. I smirk knowing of many people who are like that. Not everyone is blessed with the talent of writing, we all know. I'm not saying that I, myself, am a great writer, because in fact sometimes I'm feel my work doesn't live to what it should be. I think I prefer to write the odd piece, here and there, spontaneously. Here I go, blabbering as usual, swerving off topic.

What I wish it say in this post, is that firstly; thank you Sara (sarabear123) for writing that ever-so inspiring piece on Memoires of A MeDoll, it moved me and changed my view. Thank you for that.

Secondly, I would like to forgive another bloggers who are offended by this piece. You are free to express anything into your posts and I don't judge you for that. I might have a different style of writing to you and might not understand what message you want to give me. Anyway, you should get over one or a few horrible comments. Before, I felt upset whenever I got a harsh comment, but recently I have smiled at that comment. That measly, little comment some how helps me with my writing, improves it I think. That doesn't mean that you should give people a harsh comment, some people are not made of hard stuff, you can say things nicely, remember.

I think you should go for what YOU love, not what your friends think. I love art, fashion, beauty and writing but you may be different. Hey, doesn't mean that you should shy away and be a wallflower. People will accept you, somewhere they will understand. They might not be near you, or live in the same country, but they do understand you.

I guess that concludes my spontaneous post and to all my readers, where ever you live, I bide you a small farewell.

Until we meet again,

Niamh x

Improvise

Improvise: to compose and perform or deliver without previous preparation

It is a word many bloggers don't even know they do a lot of the time. We improvise and write what we are thinking at the moment in time. A spur of the moment. Even writing this, I am improvising, making up sentences on the spot.

Now, what would we actually do without improvisation? We would have very single detail planned out to be perfect. Yet, there is no such thing as perfect. Take a recipe for example. The instructions are easy and we are told to follow them to get the perfect product. You may find that you might not have everything that the instructions have told you, so you improvise or experiment. In the end you come out with a beautiful cake or pan of bread. You realise that things are better when you improvise.

I, myself, am quite organised but I find that when I improvise, everything, most of the time, is better than I planned.

Basically, what I'm saying is that, don't be afraid to improvise, a spur of the moment can be the best thing that will happen to you. It depends on what you choose.

Niamh x

Writing For You

Dear Readers,

As seconds roll past, I wonder what I should write here, an upcoming trend or sad story, God knows what. One thing for sure is that I enjoy writing for you and am pleased if you read this ever-so-boring paragraph.

I find my strengths when I write here, listening to music helps a lot, ever if I start belting it out. Music is like a piece of writing but only sung and I doubt this would sound good as a song but anyway.

Looking outside I see the sun, dust floating and am mesmerised, feeling like closing my eyes. Times like these I begin to write. A story set here or there, love or murder, I find it's something I'm passionate about. Painting a picture with your mind and expressing it in words.

Thank you for reading this if you have and enjoy what you love.

Nee x

New Writer

Hello Readers. My name is Niamh or Nee for short and I am thirteen years old. I live in Ireland and have been a Stardoll member before. You will find me on other blogs such as; The Voice, Blogging Everyday, Nee's Designs and others. I am also in an upcoming project which is The Legacy Magazine. I have a Wattpad account and a Polyvore account which you can contact me at too (Wattpad - TheIrishHufflepuff ; Polyvore - beesnees).

I decided to write for this blog because I felt like I wanted to express my feelings elsewhere. 

Anyway! I would like YOU to choose what to write for your own interest.

Nee x